So fast and it's semester 3 already..just looked up my own blog yesterday and surely i couldn't help but notice the sorry state of the webpage. on the right, as you can see, is a picture i havent changed for ages, and below it is a lame supposed-to-be-temporary-statement that i never bothered to change...and a few of my blog links are outdated.

i wonder who even reads my blog anymore. tee hee.

Anyway, im glad that Semester 2 has ended (just as quickly as i wanted it to..=) ) And i really thank God for my 4.0 *yhay*... it feels good to be starting new subjects, though i really liked my subjects last sem and REALLY wouldnt mind having to repeat them again. oh well, this sem im taking :

• Principles of Accounting I (gee, i dunno what im in for)
• Cultural Anthropology (sounds so 'geng' rite hahahah)
• Microeconomics
• Biology (which im kinda regretting..but the other option would be Chemistry)

well, hopefully i can cope. i feel kinda lost going to classes without Fiona. She doesnt have to come back ever since she's completed both LAN (malaysian studies and moral education) subjects. Claire's gone too (she still owes me 40 bucks lol) and alot of others. i miss having Fi come to my room every nite to talk nonsense together. i miss playing with her phone. i miss poking fun at her. oh now i cant borrow her black pants anymore...now we cant complain about lazy ppl together anymore. now she wont join MUN with me...now she cant go to the Ball with me. .

and what about other friends on the waiting list? i mean, i'll be happy for them if they get to go...but i'll be damn sesat here la. STILL, i've come to enjoy the freedom i have here, staying on campus. i sort of just do my own thing..and problems and arguments at home cant get to me. Don't get me wrong, i love my family..but being here gives me space. Space to do nothing, really. it's not like im living alone in KL hahahha.

can't wait for the year to be over. can't wait for the "U.S. Period" to be over. can't wait to be free,really. being the eldest child is a huge suffocater..and even more so if ur a girl. parents fuss over you..often times to the point of choking you. can't blame them, they're new to this too. as my fellow-first-child told me:
 "As the oldest, you gotta break alot of things so that your younger siblings have an easier time around it. "

im not an ignorant or naive child screaming "I know what i'm doing!" and yet, i really wished i had some space to make my own mistakes. i'm 18 this year. when i was much younger, parents told me that "when im 18" then i can do such and such. and when im 18, they tell me that "when im 21" or "when im working" then i'll be able to do such and such.

seriously. if they dont wanna deal with things now, do they seriously think they can deal with it when i turn 21 in US?

*pulls hair. stomps feet*

Oh not to worry..i can be patient..i can bid my time..i've learnt it the hard way..and if i have it my way, i will NOT fail again. *evil laugh*

who am i kidding. let me go!!